Ive had this picture sitting on my blog as an unposted blog for quite a while, I guess I was just waiting for the right moment. But maybe this isn’t really the right moment for any of this. But we are capable of such great heights.
and I refuse to come down, compromise or give up.
There’s a quote i put on my blog for about 5 minutes before i changed it, its from the new frontiers, a band alessandra gave me and in one of their songs, the vocals sing “I burn my wings on the sun when I fly.” I personally think that quote is pretty sweet. But anyway, the aspiration to do greater things has imposed itself on my heart this week. Especially on Thursday and Friday.
I got a nice smack in the face on Thursday by Isabel about my pride, and the most obvious thing occurred to me.
I am holding me back. my fears, my frustrations are boiling away as anger, and I am wasting my capability to fly. Greater things are within reach, but as long as I let the darkness, my self perpetuated prison to continue I will never rise and face the day.
And I think if there was ever time to say it, its now. I just finished trying to salvage my parents relationship. And really to no avail, and to be honest, it hurts so much that I almost want to give up. I want to just throw in the towel at 6:59 pm and come down.
But, I know that I wasnt wired that way, I wasnt created and loved just to let the monkeys on my back dictate to me if I will fly or not.
It isnt a question of wings, its a question of effort.
And we as humans will forever have that effort hindered until we throw it all away. all of our fear, our baggage, it all needs to go out the window and fall,
and we need to jump the window and fly.
and realize such great heights.
