the stars and their redemption

After I got home from school yesterday, I came home and took a nap, which consequently caused me to rush to get ready for the cappies show and forget my keys. So when it was over, Caroline and I left Taravella  and we got to my house only to realize that I couldn’t get in. So being a great girlfriend, she reclined her seat and we sat and talked for 40 minutes.

If you’ve never reclined your seat and sat inside of a semi-warm car that is turned off amidst Florida’s quasi-winter weather, I certainly recommend it. So we sat and talked and held hands, and honestly sitting there it occurred to me. This is why Jesus died.

This was it. Under the stars, deep in her eyes illuminated by a streetlight, I could see a work of God, the almighty artist, the divine dad left his mark on her. His love chiseled her into existence, and now my love is admiring it.

And you are no different.

Never forget the miracle you have inside of you. You are not a letdown.

The love God used to craft us and the love he has that is deep enough to take us as we are at any moment was something I saw tonight, and Ill never be the same.

“The greatest love that anyone could ever know, overcame the cross and grave to find my soul”

such great heights.

Ive had this picture sitting on my blog as an unposted blog for quite a while, I guess I was just waiting for the right moment. But maybe this isn’t really the right moment for any of this. But we are capable of such great heights.

and I refuse to come down, compromise or give up.

There’s a quote i put on my blog for about 5 minutes before i changed it, its from the new frontiers, a band alessandra gave me and in one of their songs, the vocals sing “I burn my wings on the sun when I fly.” I personally think that quote is pretty sweet. But anyway, the aspiration to do greater things has imposed itself on my heart this week. Especially on Thursday and Friday.

I got a nice smack in the face on Thursday by Isabel about my pride, and the most obvious thing occurred to me.

I am holding me back. my fears, my frustrations are boiling away as anger, and I am wasting my capability to fly. Greater things are within reach, but as long as I let the darkness, my self perpetuated prison to continue I will never rise and face the day.

And I think if there was ever time to say it, its now. I just finished trying to salvage my parents relationship. And really to no avail, and to be honest, it hurts so much that I almost want to give up. I want to just throw in the towel at 6:59 pm and come down.

But, I know that I wasnt wired that way, I wasnt created and loved just to let the monkeys on my back dictate to me if I will fly or not.

It isnt a question of wings, its a question of effort.

And we as humans will forever have that effort hindered until we throw it all away. all of our fear, our baggage, it all needs to go out the window and fall,

and we need to jump the window and fly.

and realize such great heights.